Saturday 7th December 2013...

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Today its Saturday and the first actual day I had a lie in this morning!  It was AMAZING!

Yes no theme today... its a relaxing day!

Breakfast.... yes I actually ate some! ha ha a

It was 2 small slices of fresh wholewheat bread toasted with Marmite :) mmmm

And yes I cut it into smaller squares, feels like I have loads that way!

Nothing much to say during the day really...just been relaxing watching TV, cross stitching and catching up on FB.

Lunch... well I tried!  I had some sweet potato's roasted like chips tossed in piri piri spicy mix.

What I attempted to eat...

What I left...

Like I say a boring relaxing day today so the next thing to show and tell you about is dinner!! ha ha.

So I felt like having something light but filling.  So made this...  Its wholewheat brown rice with what I am calling a green medley of vegetables! 

I enjoyed it and it tasted good too.  And the best thing it did not make me full or feel really full either.  Its just right.

And now what am I up to.... erm.... cross stitching!  Something for a friend, its like an exchange thing.

Ok want to see some recent cross stitch things I have finished...

This is something I made recently and sent to a friend in Canada.  The design is from my favorite cross stitch designer... Alessandra Adelaide Needleworks... website .Its called Butterfly.

I also made a little Christmas thing!  I do not make cards because I just dont have the patience, so came up with this...

And this one too... another design by Alessandra Adelaide Needleworks, simply called The Maple Leaf.

So yes this is what I have been up to!  I like cross stitching as it relaxes me and removes me from the world just like in my own little bubble just while I cross stitch.

Until tomorrow...

Maybe another relaxing day? hmmmm possibly!

Friday 6th December 2013...

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SMILE today... this is how I mean to go on... 

Last night we had a power cut, but was sorted a few hours later thank goodness.

I was up and out really early this morning with the RAC man, getting a new front Tyre.  Whilst waiting I managed to drink 3 coffee's from the machine!  Then after the new Tyre was fitted it was quick home, make sure Jon was OK... Han was dropped off at college by my dad luckily or she would of been late.  Then after a quick catch up and sit down I was out again... to physio at the hospital.  To see about getting help with my knee.

So now back after the physio session... found out that I have a few things going on with my knee..its all very complicated, long words and hurts!  That about covers it! ha ha

I was given some light moving exercises to do and in 2 weeks time my physio appointment is in the hydro pool... all very exciting!

Hmmm not doing very well on the food front I am afraid.. today I have had no breakfast and no lunch.  I did actually make lunch... brown wholewheat sandwich but just did not fancy it.. Jon ate it!

I will make sure I eat dinner later....

Still not actually feeling that hungry come dinner time, but did eat something.  I did steak pie with mash potato for jon...

Me I had vegetables with mash potato... did not fancy anything.  I shock myself eating mash potato as I dont like it!!  Seriously I dont, its something to do with the texture.

I thought I was not hurting that much after the physio session... hmmm maybe that is why I have not eaten much all day?  I have been worse than this before now where I have eaten nothing because I just could not due to being in pain.  I hope and guess this is a normal thing?

It does not help that I am feeling really drained and tired.  I guess I have myself to blame for that...all the running about place to place I have been to over the last couple of weeks.

Not long until Christmas... I am waiting for a delivery of an item for a friend, I hope it comes before Christmas?  Talking of Christmas.. OMG is it me or has it come around quick?  I mean damn its Christmas already??!!  Where has the year gone?

I cannot believe its been a year almost of me being on this journey... how its flown.  And what a journey its been so far!  I think I have realized over just the last few weeks that my priorities have changed.  I mean I am not focused on the amount I have lost... I know I have to lose weight why torture myself knowing the numbers?!  I feel its more about fitting into clothing, comfortably for me... yes its being comfortable with myself.  I mean I may have to go down a fair few more dress sizes to feel comfortable, I am just not going to get hung up on the amount of weight I have lost.  I know I am still losing weight as my clothes are getting bigger!  I think I am doing OK... I mean I started a size 32 well going out of that size!  And now I am just about into a size 22!!  I think it shocking really, and am having issues dealing with the change as I still want to buy size 32 as I still look and see myself that size.  I guess this part can only truly be understood by those of you that have at one time or another been over weight and lost weight, so you know what I am talking about. Its that accepting phase where your over the moon you have lost weight but cannot get your head around it. 

hmm seems I am rambling now :(

There is NO way I will quit... I have thought about this and sure there will be days, there have been days I dont want to comply... I am human!!  But I am here until I feel comfortable remember!... no matter how long it takes me.  I just did not want people to think ooooh look at her losing that weight and now she has put it all back on... been there done that before.. not this time!  I am happy that this year I can say I have lost weight... and move on to the next year to lose more! :)

Enough waffle...

Until tomorrow...

xx

Thursday 5th December 2013...

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OH!!

Well up and out, took Hannah to college, gosh its windy today.  Then I toddled off to the shops... met my parents there!  So naturally sat in Costa and chatted whilst enjoying a skinny one shot latte! :) 

Just looked at the clock and its now just past mid day... what have I eaten... nothing!  Hmmmm well to be honest I am  not hungry, I know bad excuse and should make an effort to eat something.  I have had a coffee!

So off out again as I have to see the dentist at 12.40.  All go here!  Then back home afterwards to organize dinner and maybe a late lunch if I feel like eating?

Until later....

Here is what I ate on my return from the dentist... I was freezing. Its mulligatawny soup with wholewheat brown fresh bread. mmmmmm

So just trying to catch up on some magazine reading and maybe find a cross stitch design to stitch for s friend.  That is until I collect Han from college later.

Collected Han from college, popped around my parents house then headed home...hmmm nope!  We heard a noise and I felt the car lean so we turned the car around.  Luckily we had only driven a few houses down... turned around and parked back outside my parents home.  Looked at my driver side Tyre and OH!!

So this looks like a flat piece of metal...

This is actually what is was...look at the length of it!  All of that was in my Tyre.

We could hear the air hissing out of it.  So yes we called the RAC.. they were amazing took about 10 minutes.  The chap was amazed at the size of it.  He basically plugged the hole with plastic resin and then put air in.  He followed me home, I could not travel more than 30 mph and I took it easy!  So back home all was well... he got us home!  And now in the morning I have to check it has not gone down, then drive to quick-fit to get a new Tyre.  If the Tyre has gone down then I have to call the RAC again, they will fill the Tyre with air, enough for me to get to quick-fit.  So I guess I will be out early getting my Tyre sorted as I have physio on my knee tomorrow.

Finally home I sorted dinner out...

We had chicken fillet in breadcrumbs with all fresh steamed vegetables.  And some of our favorite German mushroom sauce.  Its called Jager.  Looks like loads but we did not have any potato's.  There was enough carbs with the chicken breadcrumbs.  Steamed vegetables are so nice, they taste so nice too....packed full of flavour.

Coffee time now... nearly 8pm... I think I need a coffee... Tassimo is my friend and I love the fact I can make a Costa latte at home :)

Then I may do a little stitching as I have not managed to get any done at all today. And an early night I think as I feel quite tired and drained.

Until tomorrow.....

Start as I mean to go on....

So this is a quick 'hello'...

It is nearly 12 midnight... why such a late blog I hear you say??

Well I have just got back from visiting Nottingham University with my daughter.  A long long day.  We set off at just before 9 am this morning and sat here writing this I feel like I am still on the motorway.

Today is probably not a very good day to start back blogging as I have been out!  But here I am...

So what on earth have I been up to these last days, weeks, months?  Erm..... I guess feeling sorry for myself!  And trying to get past why me again!  And OMG.. give me a break!!  

I have sat about feeling sorry for myself too long now and need to pull myself out of 'this'... I think this is why I have started to blog again.  To help me...

As from tomorrow I will be posting what I eat and get up to... as today not really much to say except traveled on the motorway, visited Nottingham University, walked around and got sore feet, then traveled back and sat in queues of traffic on the motorway!, got back home very late!  Yes its true we did eat...  not junk, well tried not to eat junk!  Then ate a meal in a really unusual place in Nottingham called Tamatanga, its Indian inspired dishes and very nice :)  And yes I drank plenty of Costa coffee and Starbucks coffee on route too!

Thursday is a new start of me being me again.... I have lots to chat about too... about how I feel and what direction I am going in.  Too late now, if I start this I will still be here come lunch time! ha ha

I need and want to be more positive about lots of things and I feel blogging again will help me... see what is happening now!  I am repeating myself!!! 

Ok until tomorrow...

Happy to be back :)

   

Just wanted to say...

Ok firstly THANK YOU for sticking with me...

I should explain...

I will be coming back to my blog very soon... This Wednesday 4th December :)

And why have I been away?

Hmmmm...

You know I injured my knee, I have not seen feeling so good and sunk into a bit of depression.  I felt that low I could not bring myself to post anything...see I did not want any negativity I was going through and feeling to be passed in any way shape or form to you my friends.  This is why I chose to take a longer than expected break from blogging.

I try to stay positive in everything I do... sometimes I can only take so many knock backs...

But its OK... no more feeling like that...

I am feeling much better...

I am I guess in a happier place now... 

I will let you know more details of what I am doing... what I aim to do and hopefully you can all motivate me!

Until Wednesday...