Its July and I have had my head in the clouds

Hello again, 

I have been having a little identity crisis.  I will try to explain:

As you all know I returned to higher education as a mature student and gained a First Class with honours Textiles Degree and a Masters.  I have been in education a long time and to be honest I am finding it really hard to readjust without having the reliable routine.  

What not many of you are aware of is that I have a diagnosis of Autism amongst other learning difficulties.  Returning to higher education was a massive challenge and at times I did feel like I couldn't do it, but persevered. My autism affects me in multiple ways, thankfully throughout all my of higher education I have had an amazing mentor who helped me though it as well as helping me to understand myself.  My main difficulties surround social contact, social interactions and conversation amongst other issues.  I threw myself into the deep end when I applied to university, and to be honest I still cannot believe that I actually went! And got a degree!! Having a reliable routine helped me to have a sense of order in my life, it's only now without it I can see I am not coping as well.  As this title of this post highlights, it's July and I have had my head in the clouds, literally have no idea where the time has gone.  That's another thing, I have no concept of time, I arrive and go everywhere really early as I don't want to be late.  

And what have I been doing? Tried to get back into my cross stitch and embroidery, but I got too overwhelmed with the choices I have and ended up doing none. In fact I ended up seeing my embroidery as an outlet that overwhelms me rather than something that relaxes me.  This went on for what seemed ages, I love to create 3D hand embroidery as it really challenges me.  So I made a bug, it didn't turn out how I expected at all but the process drawing, designing then stitching and making gave me a purpose again and I really enjoyed it.  This is him, I called him Boris, that in itself isn't odd from me, see I call everything Boris! Boris has a purpose too, doubles as a pin cushion, pins can be stuck in his spots.

 

 I then wanted to do something fun as I thought Boris was a little too serious, a sea inspired pin cushion.

I hear you asking, what's with the pin cushions? Why pin cushions? Interesting question, the answer is two fold, I design and stitch things to give myself purpose and I need what ever I create to have a purpose too.  

Now as I write this I am embarking on a major project, one that has given me purpose.  I am designing and stitching miniature house plants.  Sounds odd I know, but I need to feel challenged and this is really filling this need.

Here is where I am:

And currently embroidering a miniature spender plant, photos to follow.  

I will find my path, just may take a little longer that expected, as long as I enjoy what I am doing and feel challenged, that's really all that matters I think. In the mean time I will enjoy buying plants, I love nature, plants make me feel happy.

My cheese plant is rather large now (sorry about the dark photo)

It's darker than it should be within our home, the windows have a tint on them, bright UV light affects my eyes and by dulling the light I also find this more calming.  You can see through the open window the difference the tint makes and peeking through there is a lovely sky.

I am going back to my spider plant now, but wanted to leave you all with one last photo(s), me relaxing with a cat face mask, it appears I cannot get this right either! Very challenging, I put it on the wrong side! I did turn it over, not that it made much of a difference.  It was really nice on my face as I kept it in the fridge, cold, cucumber and aloe, very nice.

                                  

Until next time......