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Being Sunday I did have a little sleep in.... it was nice too :)
Then got up and dressed and Han and I went to the bingo with my dad.... its nice to spend time together. Dad and Han won... not me :(
Food has been lets say been a challenge today as I have not really wanted anything. I did however eat something, which is good.
Breakfast... nothing... nope not feeling it today!
Lunch.... nope! not feeling it today either!
Dinner... well yes OK I did eat something.. cooked some chicken fillets in the oven and had with a little rice and Han wanted me to try couscous... interesting! And had a little mushroom sauce on the side.
A very boring bland looking dish today... I guess this reflects how I feel about food again. It appears I am going through THAT phase again. Where I just have no interest in food, cannot be bothered with it but know I have to eat it.
In the evening I have eaten some yogurt..low fat naturally! And well did not enjoy it!
Well been filling my time buried in my stitching... it keeps me out of trouble! An update...
Hmmm I am very naughty... bet your wondering why I have not been to the gym or pool? Well I could not go to my physio session either, I had to cancel it....
Not good I am afraid... its my knee. Its playing up again, damn well hurts! :( I have been going to the physio, doing what they ask and yet I still have a sore painful knee. I mean really!!! Its stopping me doing things... I try to walk on it and every step hurts... I sit down for a while and relax...its ok. I get up, should say try to get up. As soon as I put any weight on my leg, OMG pain! and a lot of grinding clicking sounds..
I wont lie, this is so depressing. And whats even more depressing is the fact that I may have to get used to this... I mean its not likely to get better, its coping living with it now. Which I clearly am not!
Sometimes I wish there was an easier way to lose this weight I am carrying... Oh I know there is... the various operations you can have. Not for me, see I have a phobia... that if I am put under for an operation I will not wake up. Sounds a little crazy? I think that. So no operations for me. But I cannot lie they are and do sound tempting... and a quick way to get it all off too. But wait.. all the layers of stretched fat that is left is not nice. Not sure I could live with it. People tell me I am doing it the best way... slow and stay off. Yes well I see a problem with this way I am doing it now. With my reduced activity I dont think I am losing weight... I have not gained, OK so that is a good thing at least.
I NEED to do something... I cannot swim as the twisting movement in my knee is too much. I cannot use my treadmill to do anything at the moment as just walking hurts. What am I to do? I feel like I am failing myself... I dont want to fail...
I WANT to carry on and lose weight but how when I cannot physically do anything? Just want to scream....
hmmmm maybe I will think on this... not giving up just yet!