Got up today feeling really happy and in a positive mood. I have no idea why but I was not hungry when I got up.. eating breakfast seems an odd thing to do if your not hungry!
So I had no breakfast! I think this is probably a bad habit to be in, not sure how to get out of it now? But do you see my logic? Why eat if your not hungry? Hmmm
I did do a little spot of shopping today, just went looking for meat really!! I dont eat enough meat so went for a look! I found some thinly sliced beef, bought 2 packs so no doubt I will be experimenting with that! I also bought fresh chicken strips that were marinated in mango and chilli... they should be interesting! So I found some meat!
Whilst at Tesco there is a Costa and I love the latte's.... but no latte's for me as I am NO coffee's. Instead I had a red fruit berry iced drink.
Its really tasty and cold! I did enjoy it but cold not drink it all... here is what I left;
Its becoming a bit of a habit this.. I mean me leaving things! I just dont get it? Maybe my brain thinks I can drink/eat it all and my stomach and mouth is saying no, no more!?
OK so this is probably not the best lunch to have... I had about 6 thin slices of baguette, and I dipped them into warm Camembert with an onion glaze. This was very filling and tasted really nice too.
Herbal tea, green rooibos and honey flavor.
Breast chicken in a curry sauce with mushrooms in rice, served with half a plain nan bread. This is half a portion as I felt I needed to do something about my portion sizes! This size was actually really good, I felt like I had eaten dinner, but not over eaten. I may use this bowl again!
Herbal tea, mango and berry flavor.
Cup a soup, tomato, red pepper and chilli. Its the first time I have had this cup a soup and well I am not impressed! Its very powdery in your mouth, even with the water in it!
A little treat! 2 squares of Lindt mint dark chocolate. I can limit myself to just 2 squares of this, its strong chocolate and I cannot really eat any more in one go. It is lovely and I do have it in my fridge, I eat it when I feel like it... which is not all the time.
Well my early birthday present got fitted today. It was delivered over a week ago, sitting on the floor... see we could not assemble it. Had to wait for some very nice people to assemble it for me. I have nick named it the beast as it massive!! Slightly bigger than we expected! Yes my newest piece of equipment to help me with my journey is a treadmill!
And yes I have been on it!! I could not wait to try it! It has something that is called 'ifit' where a detachable unit can be programmed by my PC then slotted in the top and holds anything I want. My husband tried it out by putting the route to my parents house... all 2.3 miles! I got on it and started walking away... at 4km, so a pretty quick pace. The treadmill automatically inclines and declines with the actual terrain that is programmed so that part was a surprise! I did do it though....
36.34 minutes, 2.4 miles at 4 km, I burned 157 calories!! I was pleased it had a built in fan! I was awfully hot when I got off it! But loved it. I think there will be more posts of what I have done on the beast as its a form of motivation... do it and post it. Then feel proud and happy with what I have done.
Water (ribena) intake: 2 filled bottles (roughly 2 pints)
My thoughts for the day:
Today looking back at my day I am really shocked. Shocked at the lack of food! Gosh how am I not hungry? This is just plain strange. I guess if I were hungry I would know right!? I dont feel it, maybe all this water I am drinking is helping me to feel fuller? Or maybe I just dont need to eat more? Dont need to eat more?? Who am I kidding! I love food, all food! I obviously need to tell my brain I no longer need to eat loads and heaps of food. Tough when I get a plate and dish food up, I think I need more and more... how do I get out of this? I only eat what I need now, I have got used to the full feeling and dont eat over that anymore. So how on earth do I stop piling my plate high? I guess trying the bowl out restricts the amount I can pile up! I shall give that a whirl!
Its true I admit it!! I have some OK 3 bars of dark chocolate in my fridge. I know 3 bars!! OK they are there as a test, I can eat them any time I like...as much as I like.. but I choose to eat only 2 squares when I feel like it. They may sit in the fridge for weeks before I touch them. I guess they are a kind of safety blanket for me, see I practically lived on chocolate and jelly sweets and I feel the need to have them around. I think it strange that I can limit myself to just 2 squares and put the rest back in the fridge. When I can pile my plate high... where is the logic?
I am trying to enjoy my journey, fun is key! I want to have fun, start living more, enjoying life. I have been overweight for far too long and want to do things I have missed out on. My weight has held me back so many times, enough is enough, I am going to get into my wellingtons.. I can do this.
not loud enough...
I CAN DO THIS!!!